The youth cup's finally over. Played yet another totally disappointing match today with KACSC. But we won though. I have to really buck up. Be in shape for the next youth cup. hee. I wanna see if i can make it as a setter. I think i might be able to. You think so? lol.
We won 3rd position. Just like last year. next year, 1st and 2nd! muhahaa

I think it will be a goodbye for me. We have reached a point of no return. And i think this maybe for the best. I'll see you in a few years time. All that I'm waiting for right now is the answer from you. Don't keep me waiting. Neither wants to regret but i don't want to drag this issue on for another day. I'm rash and i speak my mind and i know it. but you have to handle it.

Super duper exhausted and sleepy right now. Eyes are about to shut any moment. But i will update first.

We lost the match yesterday and today. How sad is that? VERY. Played a very disappointing and not-up-to-standard match. Everything wasn't right today. BUT i was in the mood. I was ready to fight for the 1st and 2nd placing tomorrow. But i'm afraid not everyone felt the same way. There was silence during some parts of the match. Didn't know of a way to cheer them up. What to do? Saint Hilda's players are produced this way.

Playing against KACSC tomorrow. I'm going to fight! I'm serious. If i have to get mad, i will. But that would obviously be a stupid choice for me. Spoil the mood and lose? No way. Well, we'll see how it goes tomorrow.

Eve, Jelly, Rui Yi and I went to Orchard after today's match. Searched for Rui yi's prom dress. Finally got it. And she looked ever so pretty in it. hee. Finally after 1 whole day of walking. Legs aching like crazy and everything, we went to eat! hahaa. Eating is always the highlight of my day. Really really tired now. Going off to sleep. Good night~!

Before i go, just wanna say that tml's my big day? haha. hopes ain't the least high. I've reached the bottom.

*Sometimes It's not all about winning. It's about how you play the game. And i don't think he really gets this.*

*Is something wrong with me?? but i can't control it.. no matter what i say or do*

We won Hua yi today!! hahaa.. We're now in the top 4.. really didn't expect it though.. it's gonna be a tiring weekend.. think i owe this all to God. He helped me when i needed him. i've got to start believing and have faith in him.

Meeting Rui Yi at Orchard tml.. gonna have dinner with her.. so romantic..only the both of us.. hee..can't wait..

You won't believe this.. but i walked for 3 hours alone last night.. reached home arnd midnight.. where did i go? everywhere.. i walked to Eve's house, then to the interchange, to Rui Yi's house, to Ngee Ann Sec, to Qian hui's house in Simei, then back to the Tampines library (following the no. 8 bus route), to the Eve's house again and then finally back home.. My knees were aching like mad.. but i didn't seem to care.. all i wanted to do was walk and walk all night. i just wanted to be alone..

My darling Klang called me in the transit area before she flew off.. Talked to her for abt 20 mins.. miss her now.. miss my Eve too.. and now even Pet is gone!! haiz..

Went down to the sports hall to pick the draws for the 2nd round.
We've got PHS 'R', PHS 'B' and Hua Yi
tough tough.. dunno if we can do it.. well.. gonna try my best though..

Andrew came to meet me after the thing.. he wanted to go orchard but i wasn't dressed for it. so we had to settle for Tampines. We watched the movie 'Saw'. eeeee....so sadistic.. it's like...so much torturing.. wasn't scary or what.. just u know.. you can't believe anyone would do this kind of thing. But i think it was a great show.. the twist and everything. I give it 4 stars.. hahaa.. but really not my kind of movie.

I don't know what happened,
It was just all so sudden.
May be I couldn't see the signs,
or was it my fault
That I didn't read between the lines.

You didn't want distractions to pull you down,
But you didn't realise,
This distraction you gave me,
Caused me my game.
It means more to me than you could ever imagine,
As I had made up my mind,
It was going to be my last and final play.

You hurt me and made me feel lost,
Without even sparing a thought for me,
You said, "Give me a week's time"
And left without an explanation,
Not even a single word.
Is this what love is really meant to be?

I don't know if I could ever love you again,
Like the way I did before,
Now that I know who you really are,
You don't strike me so much anymore.

won Sembawang Sec, 2-1 today in the match..kinda disappointed though.. it's wasn't great.. we gotta buck up..

but when i was playing, i realised i can do this. i don't need anything else. will i be lying to myself? only i alone will know the truth. is he worth the wait? i don't know. i need God to guide me thru this. everything i heard and felt has been shit. nothing else but a whole lot of shit.

*Stop making empty promises. It's shit. It will come back to you somehow*

Just got back from Jelly's house.. having a terrible headache now.. think was cuz of the vodka i drank and the walking in the rain..haha..Feeling damn moody.. and so doubly not in the mood..I'm stuck in a situation where i'm partly helpless.. but not totally.. cuz i can make my decision right now. To end it right now. i'm giving him time, which i will. but only for awhile. it's as good as gone until he replies. but for now, i'm enjoying my life the way i shud be.

shopping!!! went out with Eve to orchard today..so happy with my purchases.. hahaa.. and Eve wore this cute like sparkly pink shoes.. so cute..but it gave her blisters like hell..hahaha...

Went for a mahjong session at her house in the evening.. and i won!! feels good..haven won in a long long time..heee....

feeling so infuriated now..damn it! I'm being taken for granted... dunno if i can last much longer.. i'm gonna explode and blow up..i'm really really pissed off now.. no one had better get in my way...

Won - Orchid Park Sec Sch: 2-0

Sweet Klang and Eve came to watch the match today.. Klang drove us there.. to Hougang sports hall.. Really really thank Klang for bringing me out these few days..=)

Eve is going off soon.. and soon klang will too.. So babes, let's go shopping!! hahaha.. And christmas is coming!! so in the christmas-ey mood now..heee...

Mahjong! Mahjong! Mahjong! hahahahaha

went to Eve's house this afternoon to play..played 20,40 cents.. as usual i lost.. but not really sad over it.. in good mood today i guess...hahaa.. went for training in Tp.. ah peks again.. nothing new..

And i'm off to watch a midnight movie, Shutters, with my babes now... cya!

Miss my darling so so much.. =) hahahaa

woo hoo~! went to the john little sale at the expo today.. sweet Klang came to pick me and Eve(here's your colour..hee..) with her dad's car.. so dangerous.. i sat in the front seat without an seat belt!! hahahaa...scary..

Anyway, the expo sale was packed!! super packed and big too.. so many things to buy.. and we had to queue up for 1 hour and 15 mins.. can u believe it.. we waited there for.. let me repeat.. 1 hour and 15 mins.. hahaha..but i'm happy.. and i bet Eve is too..

Had kfc for dinner!! yummy~ i love kfc.....

still kinda irritated by this morning....

Ahhh... Bloody shit! the starting of my day couldn't possibly get any worse than it already is..

Just for the record.. it's not the issue of not having enough money.. that i don't mind.. it's the indecisiveness i can't stand.. it pisses me off.. really.. thinking about it makes me boil...

Shopping....urgh.... i'm so in need to go shopping..

Feeling damn pissed now.. why can't guys just make up their mind.. we, girls have a life too.. we can't suit it all to your plans..

The shopping outing with Klang was cancelled cuz it rained..so sad right.. haha.. it was changed to a dinner with rui yi and her at TM in the new eating place 'Phin's'. nothing great though.. the place was HoT.. as in humid.. not sexy hot.. haha..no ventilation.. don't think i'll go back there often.. i've had better..

Went to Tp to see Mark (pissed.. so there's won't be any SPECIAL colour..) train after dinner.. then i left.. another reason y i got irritated.. i went all the way there to see him.. but after the training, he asked me to go home.. so i left! nva even talk to him face to face..ok nvm

then.. he said, or rather hinted that he didn't want to go out tml.. why? because he got no money.. why couldn't he tell me earlier? like yest or earlier today? he asked me go his house there instead acc him cut hair..i said ok.. but if kiam was going, then i won't.. but kiam will only call him tml.. so that means, my day is totally unplanned tml.. he suggested to change the outing to Fri.. before the training.. but... he can't confirm! why again?? cuz he not sure if he can get money.. so there goes my fri unplanned too.. and worst thing is, i had already booked klang to go out.. tell me la... who won't be pissed right... as if i got no other activities... Damn It!

My day was sooo boring!!! so sad..

anyway, went to Faith's birthday chalet.. the bungalow chalet opposite Pasir Ris park.. and it was the exact chalet the Tp vballers had..the one that yilin organised i think? hmm... let's not bring that up..makes me instantly think of the pervert i met there.. yucks..

Went to the chalet with some of my A&F course mates.. nothing to do there at all.. just sit around and chit-chat and play cards.. booooring....decided not to stay overnight cuz there was Reeaaallllyyy nothing to do.. so might as well come home..took a cab back.........Bored...

Accompanied Jelly to Spans this evening.. was extremely lazy and reluctant to go all the way down to Toa Payoh.. debated with myself in the evening jog i had before meeting her.. but Jelly was all ready to go... so aiya.. heck.. i went down.and i took 506(the express bus)!! from Bedok Reservior..took like only 15 mins to get there.. super fast huh..

Spans......Super boring.. got bitten by mosquitos for nothing.. damn it..so in the end left to go have my dinner..then meet up with my darling Mark, JY and Kiam.. and i took the long journey of bus 8 home alone....hahaa.. but it wasn't that bad...

Bride & Prejudice!! great show! didn't think much of it when i saw the advertisement.. but it was good!! i recommend all you people out there to go watch it.. it's so funny and sweet and nice..ahhaa.. finally got to go out with my Pet to watch the movie.. so near but yet so far.. hee.. went to coffee bean after that to chill then went over to her house to watch the vcd White Chicks.. so funny too!! couldn't stop laughing.. think i'll go get the vcd too..very touching at the end..tears sort of swelled up in my eyes at the end.. hahaa.. i looove this kinda of touching romantic movies.. i can practically watch them all day long.......

My mum fucking pissed me off today.. damn fed up.. couldn't be bothered to give her any explanation what so ever.. all i did was walk away and straight to my room..

Still fed up with her now but i'll give u an update of today.. Met my Mark today!! after so long..hahaa.. missed him so much..met him for breakfast then went to meet the Jelly, Klang and Eve to go sentosa..

The weather so sickening today! it was so sunny in the morning but it rain like crazy in the afternoon.. so in the end only stayed in sentosa for about 1 and a half hours..but we took alot of pictures! hahaa.. i will always remember what klang's fren said about us.. that, people loved to take act cute pictures, but how come we liked to take ugly pictures... in the sense that we make funny faces and all that..hahaa.. so funny...

supposed to go TP to play abit of vball.. but there wasn't any court so we played table tennis instead.. got bored and went to Eve's house to play mahjong.. lost money!! y am i so suay..i hate it!!! and i'm still fed up....

Badminton, badminton with Chia..had to drag myself out of bed just to go play.. but aiya..gave my word so had to turn up.. well, didn't regret it.. it's so fun!! Eve and I paired up and Klang and chia paired up..so funny the whole game..all of us couldn't stop laughing.. after that had Sushi for lunch.. so nice to talk with him again.. hope he gets married soon..hahaha..

today i was sooo busy.. hahaha.. klang and eve came my house for swimming.. think i toned up a little tini bit..hahaa..really enjoy my self so much when i'm with them.. went to tamp central and had KFC for dinner... The service was SUPER lousy.. that bloody cashier gave Eve chicken breast meat when she didn't want it and didn't serve Klang her cheese fries.. gave her a queue number so that it would be sent to her.. in the end, it wasn't.. when we were done, only then the cashier came.. but WITHOUT the fries.. even forgot the order..took the number and left but didn't even bring the fries back.. we got irritated and even wanted to use a fork to threaten her..hahaa.. went to ask about it and to think that the SICKENING cashier could even forget about it.. sickening right.. gave klang a bloody so small bag that it even broke... hahahaa.. really lousy..really...

Notting Hill is showing now!! i love this show.. seen it so many times.. but no matter how many times i see it, i will always love it..hee... going back to watch the show now.. byeeee...