OMG! Another Shocking elimination!

American Idol 27/4:

Carrie Underwood- "When God-Fearing Women Get the Blues"- Martina McBride
Bo Bice- "I Don't Wanna Be"- Gavin DeGraw
Vonzell Solomon - "I Turn To You"- Christina Aguilera
Anthony Federov- "Surrender" - Celine Dion
Constantine Maroulis- "How You Remind Me"- Nickelback
Scott Savol- "Dance With My Father"- Luther Vandross

Carrie Underwood
A little disappointed in her performance this week. It didn't show her vocals and it was difficult to hear what she was singing. She should have picked a better song. But I think she showed her personality more this week. There was stage presence and she looked like she was enjoying it for the 1st time. I realised she always dressed to suit her song choice. Loved that about her even though she was called old fashion because of that. Nonetheless, Carrie's still got my vote.

Bo Bice
Didn't like what he was wearing. I don't really like his whole rocker thing he does every week with the mic-stand. It irritates me. But I thought his song this week was good though.

Vonzell Solomon
She was great! Singing one of my favourite songs. Her voice was fantastic. I think i wouldn't mind if either Carrie or she won. She looked great and i think this was one of her best performances in weeks.

Anthony Federov
Oo~ He's the dark horse to win this competition. His voice is improving week by week. He's got Clay's looks but i he just doesn't have that certain sparkle in his eyes like Clay does. But perfect song. Celine's a wonderful singer and i think Anthony did well. He really connected to me in this week's performance. You could feel him putting his heart in it. It's amazing really. He almost couldn't speak, and now, he's singing!

Constantine Maroulis
Lousy song choice. He should have sang something else. And just like Bo, can't stand his mic-stand movements. His worst performance yet. His hair is so messy. He should cut it. However, he has such a large fan base. So i doubt he'll be in the bottom 3 this week.

Scott Savol
Go home! I don't understand why he's still in the competition. His vocals are terrible. He should have been gone when it was Top 11. This is sad. He turned a perfectly beautiful song terrible. Plus, NO CONNECTION with the viewers. It's time, Scott.

Based on this week's performance,
Top 3:
Vonzell
Anthony
Bo

Bottom 3:
Carrie (oh my.. why am i doing this to Carrie?)
Constantine
Scott

With Scott going home.

The videos will be up shortly.

i dyed my hair today!!! so funky.. it's cut like debbie hair( the lion one), base colour of brown, highlights of red (like ree yi's) and orangey streaks on the top.. i previously wanted it to be like this..


But obviously by reading the description, i got nowhere near this..
So the next time i dye it, i will definately get it Blonde.

Oh Oh! i saw The Interpreter today. Nicole Kidman was sooo pretty, with her framless glasses. she looked so clean. kinda like Julia Roberts in the movie Closer..ahaha. good show though..

i bought my CLUELESS vcd!! so happy.. Alicia Silverstone is acting in it.. can't wait to watch it.. hee...

To Andrew: I just wanna apologise to you. i know i made u really angry just now.. i was super late in meeting u.. and i know you were just giving me face when u sweared u weren't angry anymore.. it was totally and entirely my fault. no doubt about it. we're twins remember... =) forgive me k....sorry...

Carrie Underwood was fantastic today! especially her last note. Awesome! she really held it. Been reading quite a few forums and realised that many of them thought Carrie's performances were boring. cuz of the fact that she can't dance, which i agree though. However, i feel that her voice makes up for most of it. As many know, i AM and will ALWAYS be a faithful fan of her.
Oh! and did u notice Constantine's eyeliner?? hahahahahaa..

By just clicking on these 3 sites, u'll be surprised that u can find at least 10 more within them..
http://watchidol.com
http://idolforums.com
http://topsites.idolforums.com

Her best performances so far to me:
1) Alone
2) Could've been

Quite pissed off now.. feel like quiting my job.. it's so bloody tiring and stressful to the point that i have to worry before i go to bed and when i wake up.. there is really no end to it.. i just hope that next weekend comes faster..

Here I am
The one that you love
Askin' for another day
Understand
The one that you love
Loves you in so many ways...

Ok, i think by now, some people will know that i am obsessed with Carrie Underwood. i just can't help it. Whenever i come online i will be surfing her sites and watching all her videos again.. her little quotes are just so cute.. i know this is rather freakish but somehow i feel that i need to do it.. haha.. but there are sooo many sites of her and there is no end.. well, at least i enjoy what i'm doing.. hahahaa..

I'm quite busy now.. handling and bothering about so many things.. my mind is about to explode... and i'm still debating with myself whether i shud go clubbing tonight.. really hope i can.. provided i finish and settle all the things i need to do..

i just reached home not long ago.. i went to meet rui yi for dinner at Sakae Sushi.. then we suddenly had a feeling to watch a movie.. ooooo... i can't wait for the movie 'The Interpreter' to be out.. i'll certainly be there to catch it.. oh and i heard that movie prices are increasing by a dollar? what crap right? Protest protest!!! day light robbery..

ok, back to the movies, we decided to watch 'Guess who'.. LOUSY SHOW.. don't bother watching.. not even funny.. i will only give it 2/5 stars.. 1 star is for the effort to TRY to make it funny.. the other 1 star for the rather touching ending.. that's it! nothing more. kinda sleepy now.. head seems to be spinning......

I had work today at suntec with Eve and Ree yi..worked for about only half an hour, compared to the 4.5hours we were supposed to do.. then we went to have breakfast and slacked and shopped around until our movie at Orchard, Cineleisure. the chairs there were purrfect! so comfy! we watched the movie Beauty Shop.. it was ok.. quite funny.. the only reason i watched it was for Alicia Silverstone..nothing else much.. gotta meet at Ash at 9.45pm at Eunos to go to the company to collect my pay..wierd huh.. so late at night.. *scared... what if it's a trap??

Had a friendly match with TJC yest.. it was fun... everyone came! left early with Eve cuz we had to work at Holland V at 2pm.. rush like mad, carrying all those stupid supplies of flyers..and i fell while blading!! damn it man.. so pain... and i fell from a slope!! i tot i could go up, the grab the railing halfway and then pull myself up.. BUT... before i could reach like 10 cm un the slope, i fell! Straight on my KNEES.. hurt like hell i tell u..i was so afraid that my injury would come back and i couldn't walk properly again.. had bruises all over my arm too.. =( and the flyers flew all over the place.. didn't work much after that though.. Eve and i went to the coffee shop for an hour to eat, then left an hour ealier to come home..

Went to Furong's birthday chalet in the evening. Klang came to pick us.. left to go clubbing after that.. clubbing was ok.. but i was super tired.. around 3am, i felt like sleeping already.. but yest, the club had break dancers!! super cool, very very pro... niccceeeee.....

Some people might say in a slit second that they are ready for love. but tell me, how many of you are ACTUALLY ready? at the tip of your tongue, your say u are. but if u think really hard about it and what u really want, i'm positive u will change your mind.

In everything that u do, there is a risk. Some may want to take it, others may not. But unless you want a change, risk is something you have to take..

I always thought that i knew what i want. but after taking time to really find myself, i'm not so sure anymore. I found out things about myself that i never knew. Finally someone understands how i really feel. cuz she's feeling the same way.

I need my freedom, i need my space. And until that someone really takes the time to understand me and what i want in my life, i'm afraid that i will not be taking that risk.

Eve and I went down to MagStorm Holding Ptd ltd yesterday. didn't want to go down initially when the people there are so scheming.. They kept saying that the company has chosen me and i was short listed and that there was no harm in going down.. conner! all conners! well, in my good and kind nature, i felt bad to reject them and pulled Eve to go down along with me. the people there are quite nice.. young i must say.. very young..we were intereviewed and asked to go down to the company today but we rejected it.. thank goodness! the damn company was in Tanjong Pagar and we had to walk a distance to reach there.. However, the person said something that i think will forever remain in my mind. she said, 'I did not come out by accident. My parents planned for me and it is only right that i plan for them now.' I mean, how true is that!

Anyway, a few of us went to Eve's house last night.. watched TV and 'FRIENDS', ate ice cream and stuff.. damn fun..Eve drove us to Simpang Bedok to have prata at 1am..exciting! LOL.

So Ree yi and i will be heading down to Eve's house again tml morning at 8am to watch Season 8 of 'FRIENDS'. hahaa. i think u must be wondering why we are going so early.. but I wanted to reach home at 6.30pm in time to watch 'Bewitched'. so we had to get up extra extra early tml to be able to watch the whole season.. hahaha.. cool huh..

Oh yah! American Idol tml!! Carrie Underwood!!!!

Friday:-
Went Sentosa with my darlings.. didn't do much.. played around in the water and read my book.. didn't want to get in the sun too much.. we left pretty early.. went to PS to catch the movie Spanglish. Very very good show. It really touches on family and stuff.. It's funny and touching!

Anyway, i had abit of time to reflect on my life.. this few days, i've been having this terrible feelings.. depression, sadness, anger. OVER NOTHING.

I dunno why. it's really hurting me but i can't tell what it is. There's this empty gap. I'm very happy with my life. Now i get the meaning when women say they can start crying over nothing for a few mins. and after crying, they feel better and carry on with their life as though nothing has happen. is it mid life crisis? damn! my assumptions are true! i'm freaking old!

i thought about things and finally came down to.. maybe the thing i'm missing is God and my family.. my cousins and all. i miss them.. last time when new christians gave their testimonals in church. i hd skeptism in my heart. they claimed that there was something missing in their life and when they found God, they felt whole again. now i think i get the meaning.. hallelujah!

Right now,

Saturday:-
Went to Orchard at 11am to work as a promoter/distributer of flyers for Singtel. Was supposed to Blade and hand out flyers but thank goodness it rained. Did the job with my cousin's fren, Ash. we spent like only 2 hours actually working. the rest was eating, reading magazines chit chatting.. But it was boredom. So if anyone is in the area of Orchard tml, GIVE ME A CALL!!! i'll be there from 11am to 7pm.

I went to meet Andrew for dinner after that. He wanted to eat Fish & co. But it was too crowded. Pizza Hut was too crowded too. Everyone had to bloody come out for dinner on a Sat night. so we had to settle for Subway. Good meal though.

Alright, i gotta work again tml. so i only have the next few hours to 'find myself' in solitude.