Friday: Watched the movie The Island with Sperm. The movie was quite exciting. But i found it was rather long. After that, met Andrew for supper about 11 plus. Took a cab to Bedok Blk 85. We couldn't even finish our food cuz he HAD to order his Carrot Cake. Small eater la he.. tsk tsk.. oh, and his hair very cool now.. so much better than that CENTRE parting. haha. Anyway, ya, i'm really glad i've got him to tell everything to.

Saturday: It was raining when i woke up! the weather was so wonderful to continue sleeping. But too bad, had to get up and go to Kelly's house for Steamboat. So fun! Saw all my babes again, except Pet. forever missing in action. we shud eat steamboat more often. I like. haha. Eve drove us to the Cheesecake cafe. But sooooooo super crowded cuz we ordered takeaway back to Kelly's house. Played alot alot of scary games. Not fun. The games always make me panic and i drank vodka. Drank just a bit but i felt so hot. Not good not good.

Alright, i gotta wake up at 6am tml to get to Sentosa. Another Beach vball competition. Hope we can win!!!! weeee~~

I'm back! from the chalet i had in Sentosa on Friday. super fun but the room very small and cosy. and everyone was snorning.. especially Bel and Klang. hahaa.. Shared a bed with Bel on the first night and she was so violent and noisy. she kept pushing me into the corner until i couldn't take it any longer and i shoved her away. I tot that would wake her up cuz i pushed her rather hard. but no, she just continued snoring. Damn cold that night too. didn't bring a jacket and i was wrapped up in all my clothes. haha

Today; Sunday had the Quiksilver Beach Volleyball competition. Super exciting and tiring. Had a headache from all the sun. My team, Hommacide (or whatever it's spelled) got 4th place! not bad huh.. Out of like 48 teams.. but i kinda sad though. played like crazy and got sand all over myself. and if we had gotten 3rd, we could have won something. =( nvm.. i'm proud of my team!

Oh oh! i got a new handphone over the weekend. Model: o2 Xphone IIm. quite complicated to use cuz it's like a PDA. but meddled with it for some time and kinda got the hang of it. I'm very happy with it, although i'm dead broke right now. without a single penny. all spent on my phone. haha.

Right now, i'm lost. I dunno what happened just now and i dunno anything anymore. that look, those eyes.. why did i have to see them........................ it was looking into mine........................even you saw it klang.....

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Sperm went to Pizza Hut with me today!! finally i fulfilled my craving of the student lunch. haha. And now BB is asking me to go Cafe Cartel to fulfil HER lunch craving. hahaa

Anyway, after training, Bel cycled me out of sch. I sat in front her bike and we went down the HUGE slope that was under the auditorium. Man! I screamed like hell! it was so scary! there were no brakes on, plus Bel continued cycling even though we already halfway down the slope. Just imagine how freaky that is, to be sitting in front without any control over the bike. And once u fall, bam! that's the end of u! HA. But it was fuuuuuunnnnn..... I trust Bel. She'll keep me safe.. LOL

I can do handstands.. and so can Qian! But....... can Eve do them....?

I'm sorry, I was stupid again. I really really sorry. No one should ever trust me again.

FRIDAY: Went out shopping with Sperm. Had a fantabulous dinner at Spageddies. By the end of the day, my legs ached like hell but yet i still went for supper with Andrew.

SATURDAY: Clubbing at ChinaBlack! Free entry. Place damn packed. Reached home abt 4.30, by the time i slept was about 5.15.

SUNDAY: Left home for Sentosa bright and early in the morning at 10am. So tired. Barely had enough sleep. The sun wasn't scorching today, but i got really really tanned. Hua Lun and Han Yang seems so excited to win. Makes me feel real bad. As though we're not good enough and we're pulling the both of them down. Nvm, I've decided to train up and work hard! we can do it right, Klang!

My project is due this Wednesday and my group still have like half more to go. Have not even done my Reflective Journal. And my group doesn't even seem to have the urgency in them. Damn freaky.

I know u all are disappointed and sad and whatever. but pls, try to understand where i am coming from. i'm tired of everything. i'm tired of trying. and NO, i'm not running away or whatever. you definately won't be able to understand whatever i am feeling cuz everyone is different and what i feel, is definately unable to be put everything into words.

don't start on friendship. i am really really tired. i have been thru this for 2 yrs for friendship. for you. obviously it's a team game. but at what point do u stop and think abt your life? how long do i have to keep lying to myself and to keep up this charade? until the day i die? i really used to have the passion. even now. but what's the use when everyone is doing the same? they can't be bothered, they heck care, and for goodness sake! they don't even give a god damn bloody care abt other pple! they just treat it like any old sport or a hobby.

I've changed over the years. i can feel it. it's cuz i don't feel the excitement of the sport from u all anymore. u may think u show it, but u don't. of cuz i have felt many times over and over again what u all are feeling now. the disappointment and everything. because that is how i have been feeling all these while. i figured if no one seemed to care, why would they have a change of heart and start caring now? i'm a nobody. when times go bad, then u start looking. don't u think it's too late. Responsibilty and commitment doesn't mean a thing to me anymore. Although it used to.

Debbie: I do love u. And i will keep to my word.

Right now, i'm not too sure if i'm ever going back again. Once the month of August passes, it might be over.

What a exciting time i had this past week. Emotions have been surging though me, causing my thoughts to run. I've heard alot of things that made my eyes gleam, oh boy, u wouldn't believe it even if i told u. And I've read things that allowed me to know how someone felt. I've come to realise that i love my life now and that i'm still young.

I don't wanna make a mistake cuz my fear is still there. If i appear cold to you, i apologise. I dunno what i want now. Except to feel special, and the magic of everything. That is all i'm asking for from you. If u can't wait, i understand.

Today's the first day of my 1 week break. Supposed to have training today. But Qian and I didn't go. Feeling really tired and drained of my energy. Today will give me time to think of what i want to do with volleyball. Caught the movie War of the Worlds with Qian. Tom Cruise was as charming as usual. The movie might appear as a National Geographic '80s show initially. But slowly, it became exciting. It was Sci-Fi, thriller and touched u at your very heart. Certainly a movie worth watching.

I'm back from Sentosa and it was great! can't believe that i almost didn't want to go initially. Think i ask Qian like a zillion times "can you tell me why am i going?" haha. However, the weather wasn't that great. it rained on and off for about 6 to 7 times.. played vball on the courts for awhile.. it's tough.. so difficult to jump and stuff..Anyway, i'm kinda all burnt and stuff.. my shoulders and face expecially..sadness.. it's just going to turn red and then black.. and i'll look like charcoal.........

To Fukang: thanks for offering me your shirt when it was raining like hell and when i was shivering like mad.. i will return to u when i see u again... =)

I had a driving lesson today. Don't really feel the thrill of driving anymore. It's so tiring and the damn drivers keep horning me. No patience. *tsk tsk. they shud go reflect and repent.

Going to meet Andrew later.. so happy.. haha.. he'll be my first fren i meet today and i really need to get out of the house anyway..

Alright! off to watch The Simple Life 3.. damn funny the 2 of them.. LOL..

pls refer to Debbie's blog.. it's my day too.. lol..

1 down, 2 to go.. can't wait for it to end.. i haven even been studying for my exams.. but surprisingly, i don't feel the heat..I've gotta meet my teacher tml, think she's trying to save me from failing. Oh well, i appreciate her help so i better go try out some qns later and appear as though i studied.

Went to watch Fantastic 4 with Sperm after my Tax paper today. The movie's not bad. It was funny here and there, action here and there too.. haha..Jessica Alba was preeeety......

There's nothing else further to blog.. and I've gotta go print my notes for Wed's exam now....Ciaoz!

Qian has a pool table in her house!! how cool is that.. hahaa.. BB and I went over to play after sch today.. Slacked around, straightened our hair and coloured my balls.. haha.. The germy monster really lives up to her name.. Her house so germy.. I fell sick when i was there and i now my nose is crazy blocked.. having that dusty feverish feeling..

Can u believe it, I met Wongie in the bus on my way home!! Didn't get to talk much though. Felt that i didn't really get to tell him everything. However, I did receive his reply to my mail yest. I just don't have the time to think abt the outcome of this situation now. I need time to think abt what i really want and not what other people are pushing me to do.

I'm currently watching Wife Swap.. The Swapped Wife told her fake husband "you think that's the real world. you don't know the real world." (not the exact words, but at least the point is there.) The "wife" claims she's a very busy woman as spends $2500 to $3000 a week on shopping, TRYS to spend at least 1hr with her kids and needs her ME time. Sad right.. WHILE, the "husband" is a farmer who gets up real early and stuff.. Ok, my point is, Both of them have different definations of The Real World. The "wife" thinks the business world is, the "husband" thinks the farm is the real world. But who are we to judge which is and which isn't. I just think whichever world you are in, make the best out of it and live it according to your values. You don't need to know the real world. You need to know the real you.

Oh yah. Check out the music video 'Bad Day' by Daniel Powter. Found it quite interesting.