Finally i got out of the Jean Yip office... today my colleague, Roslanz and I went out for audit while poor Buvanes got stuck in the office. haha.. went to Rivervale mall and Hougang Mall. It was the first time I was taking the LRT. and he, so blur also... we got lost! hahaha.. so funny la.. anyway, we got to our destinations fine and the pple at Jean Yip were nice and friendly..

oh and yes.... disaster came in mid-day. panicked like hell man.. i called BB and Qian and i really didn't know what to do.. in the end, after all the auditing, took a cab home.. bloody ex for such a near distance.. 9 bucks.. haha.. nvm la.. no choice anyway, right BB and Qian? hahaa

I miss my old self..............i've changed so much in secondary sch and i really really regret...sometimes i wonder why i compromised.... my friends weren't like me and i've changed to become like them... every single day i'm feeling so stifled.... and it hurts me so bad.. it's too late now and i really dunno what to do now..... FUCK!!!!

i think i need a therapist...

After 2 days of competition on sunny sentosa, Partner Seet(Grace) and I have entered the Finals for 2-on-2 beach volleyball!! omg!! i'm sooooo excited.. ahhhaa... we're even going to wear the same attire! sorry BB u have to hear this again... haha.. but all those available come on down and support us on the 10 dec!!! muahhahaha...

knowing Grace has made my motivation level for things increase tremendously.. learnt alot of things about her and right now i really look up to her.. =] i feel easy telling her stuff..

During one of the matches i had earlier on today.. the emotions running thru me were countless. I felt angry and i was hurting so badly inside.. it totally sucks..funny isn't it, i made the choice to do whatever i did, but why do i still feel all these..just now at the beach, so many things were running thru my mind but i dunno if i'm willing to say everything out.. I'm feeling very alone. so many people are around u. but they have their own things and time and time again they tell u 'they are always there for u', but in actual fact u are left to fend for yourself.

Anyway, ya... I had a blast this weekend and i'm like totally burnt and like a lobster now... my face is really really painful.. just hope i don't peel.. ahhh!!! no mood to go back to work tml!! but i'm only left with 1 week more!!! yipee!!!!!!!!

For all those out those who thinks they are oh-so-cool..... I'm sorry to say this but........................

I GOT MY CARRIE CD IN THE MAIL TODAY!!! OMG OMG OMG!! I LOVE IT LIKE CRAZY!!! plus there's a poster of her in there... gosh....thanks Sperm! =] oh and Mun, thanks for telling me abt her video.. I d/led it to my handphone already.. purrfecction! LOL...

Ok... it's time to let out some steam....... i was soooooo damn fucking pissed off today with my fren... tell u ah... freaking selfish k.. it's all abt you and you and you.. I've been controlling since day 1 and haven't told a sole about it..i'm like that.. some things are just meant for myself and i rather not tell and show it to anyone..but.... it was the max today....

just cuz i give in to you, smile and pretend it doesn't affect me 1 tiny weeni bit, IT JUST DOESN'T GIVE U THE RIGHT TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME!! WHO DIED AND MADE U GOD!?!? that sick smile.. purrleeease.. right from the start of the day u had to piss me off..

and that BB, was like laughing all the way when i called her to complain abt it.. that Andrew, so calm and stuff... haiz... i will forgive, forget and forward.. and try to live the right way that God wants me to..

"In your anger, do not sin; Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold." Ephesians 4:26-27

I read this from a website:
A lady once came to a famous preacher Billy Sunday and tried to rationalize her angry outbursts. "There's nothing wrong with losing my temper," she said. "I blow up, and then it's all over." "So does a shotgun," Sunday replied, "and look at the damage it leaves behind!" Our anger can leave terrible devastation behind.

"A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger." Proverbs 15:1

As you can see, i have striked off the 'F' word on top. I will NOT let the devil have a foothold on me. NEVER.

The Carrie CD selling at HMV is 43 bucks! AHHHH!!!
SOMEONE BUY IT FOR ME!!! pleaseee? =]
but it's an import.. so guess i just gotta wait until the singapore one comes out..

BB and I was supposed to go down to Toa Payoh for the vas meeting.. but apparently it was cancelled and we weren't informed until we called Hui Yee.. damn it man! we were already in the cab summore..i mean.. what kind of management is this?! so disorganised.. BB's the team captain and they didn't inform her.. instead, they informed her team mate. what a shit hole.. no internal control at all..

no choice, both of us were already in the cab.. so we took to Orchard instead.. met klang there and went shopping for presents.. the both of us walked like mad man... our legs were halfway breaking and we weren't even shopping for ourselves! at least we pampered ourselves a little and ate Marche for dinner.. by the time i reached home, totally tired.. don't think i need to go jogging tml anymore.. it's already been done.. well, at least i spent my day with her and i really enjoyed it.. =] damn funny la the both of us i think.. haha.. love ya klang!

My supervisor's out of town for the past 2 days. she went to Jakata so the office is in turmoil. haha no la.. we just didn't get much work done.. took some photos.. here they are...


My office






Idah and me. This picture was taken way too close and it really took me by shock. so here is it again, my fake smile.


Buvanes and me

i'm sorry.. i really am... i don't ask you to forgive me.. all i want is for u to understand.. i'm really sorry.........

if this will make u feel any better, your last msg really hurt me.. it showed me that u didn't care...........and u no longer will.............

I went to watch the movie 'Just like Heaven' today with Sperm. nice show.. touching too. but the movie's alittle short.. and reese witherspoon is soo pretty. haha..

oh! i was outside level 5 century square toilet when i saw Slyvester and Mia. they came out of the toilet and just walked off. they weren't like smiling or talking to each other. instead, they just brisk walked away. Mia had on this erm... bikini top thingy.. couldn't really see much they walked fast.. but her back was Definately like a bikini. totally bare backed except for that piece of string. nothing interesting la. chey!

Wongie walked out of us at training today. gosh. how juvenile and secondary sch.. well, whatever, we continued training. Ok. if he's reading this, i'm sorry. we should have showed u more respect. there.

Anyway, things have been happening in my life. no need updates in here for those though.

training was not bad today. Eve, bb, bel, Grace and I went to Ang keong for desert. laughed like mad over there. and then we moved on to the opposite coffee shop (the one beside Mary Brown, whatever the spelling is) to eat Char Kuey Tiao. not too bad the food. we talked abt some religion stuff. it really scares me. listening to all these makes me wanna cry sometimes. ok we had 2 bikes, bicycles i mean. so 3 got on BB's bike and 2 on bel's. Sent eve home, then Grace to the bus stop, Bel was next and then nice BB sent me to my doorstep.. hee.. by the time i got home, it was abt 12.20pm. didn't realise it was so late.

I was telling them just now. my supervisor has the habit of dragging her words.. for example, she says "I need to u check the sales. urgent ah.. Urrrrgent.." or "are u sure u neeeeever drop any mail?" hahahaha.. damn funny la.. think it got this dragging thingy in me now.. haha..

To end this entry off, i shall leave u all with a song lyric. Fantastic song.

Artist: Sheryl Crow
Song: Good Is Good

Lyrics :
Good is good and bad is bad
You don't know which one you had
She put your books out on the sidewalk
Now they're blowing 'round
They won't help you when you're down
Love's on your list of things to do
To bring your good luck back to you
And if you think that everything's unfair
Would you care if you're the last one standing there

And everytime you hear the rolling thunder
You turn around before the lightening strikes
And does it ever make you stop and wonder
If all your good times pass you by

I don't hold no mystery
But I can show you how to turn the key
Cause all I know is where I started
So downhearted
And that's not where you want to be

And everytime you hear the rolling thunder
You turn around before the lightening strikes
And you could find a rock to crawl right under
If all your good times pass you by

When the day is done
And the world is sleeping
And the moon is on its way to rise
When your friends are gone
You thought were so worth keeping
You feel you don't belong
And you don't know why

And everytime you hear the rolling thunder
You turn around before the lightening strikes
And does it ever make you stop and wonder
If all your good times pass you by

When the day is done
And the world is sleeping
And the moon is on its way to rise
When your friends are gone
You thought were so worth keeping
You feel you don't belong
Neither do I

ok.. there are pics of Halloween and Ree Yi's birthday on Kelly's blog.. u can check it out here... post your comments if u wish.. haha..

Holloween!! Last night the 5 of us, Eve, kelly, jelly, ree yi and me went partying!! I dressed up as catwoman.. hahaa.. it was fun! getting ready and all. and we went club hopping. first went to Momo. met pet there.. ooo..damn sexy her fren and her.. but we left cuz the atmosphere wasn't that great.. so we headed down to zouk..the costumes were fantabulous! it obvious the pple took pains to dress up there.. but damn packed the place.. caught a glimpse of Patricia Mok and David Gan there too.. haha.. and Finally, we went down to Chinablack. It was sooo much better.. hahaa..left China black about 3+ i think then we went to Swensens!! =) yummy.. dead tired by the time the night ended.. slpt in the car on the way back..

pictures will be up soon...