We have our ups and downs.
But my smile's the biggest when i'm with u.
And that, i assure u is the truth.

.Disappointment.

There are so many wrong things that I dont even know where to begin.
And the worst thing is, i choose to keep quiet and not speak up.
But it's not that simple. I know it's gonna be one lame and stupid excuse.
And the fact is, i just dont feel comfortable.
Dont get me wrong, u guys are great.
But no matter how much u guys shout in the game, encourage each other, i just dont feel part of it.
And this make me feel conscious of everything and afraid of u all
i dont know how i shud play and how i shud react when u guys seem to bond so naturally.
so much for The Winner's Promise and The Winner's Creed.

I really wanna be better. but there's just so little time
And i'm just so disappointed in myself.

I need more time..

Playing this game is the one thing that makes me feel so alive and so happy... And i dont want to lose it again..

But u guys are great...Really..

TAKEN FOR GRANTED. NO MORE...




FUCK IT!!!!

i want more. i need more.
so many times u ask me if i'm alright.
but i just dont know what is the right thing for me to say.
i dare not say more for fear that i will cause u to be miserable.
and i know you dont like the word 'forever'.
today, i wanted to blurt out "stop. dont go. i need u by my side tonight."
but this is something that i know im not entitled to.
in fact, im not entitled to anything.

THE PENNILESS KID

I know i'm not the easiest person to love,
But all I want is more of your attention and affection.
everyday im like a kid in the candy store,
my eyes glisten at the sight of them,
waiting and yearning i am,
But at sunset, I turn towards the door,
without a candy in my palm,
just hoping that tomorrow will be a better day.